Sleigh Bells Ring

Yeah Christmas is around the corner and I am so excited. I can't wait to be finished with my OT paper - I feel like it will take me forever to finish but I know that next Sunday I will look back and think - oh no way ...... I did it!!


Today I had this moment where in my heart I think I wanted to think that Saddam Hussain was an ok guy. The I remembered that great line:

The greatest trick the devil ever played was convincing everyone he didn't exist

Then I was back in reality feelin horrible about the thing all over again. What was that inside me that made me pause? Grace of God manifested - I doubt it, I can hardly grasp it myself....probably either stupidity or nievity. I must pray for it all.

Decided that I am in RTO (Relationship Time Out) - I think this is needed and good, I welcome time to think, pray, and reconsider something that will be the biggest thing every - eventually...in the mean time it's time to fast again - God bring me closer to you as I walk into the darkenss (Merton).


"If heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied, and both turn on the 'no's in their vacancy lights. If there's no one beside you when your soul embarks - I'll follow you into the dark." - Death Cab For Cutie, I will follow you into the dark - PLANS